Bjarki sighs deeply. “I needed to attempt to escape.” Years of writing 10 tracks a day has taken its toll, and he’s lastly reached breaking level. After 48 hours spent monitoring him down, we finally communicate to the serious-natured Icelander in Brazil over an iffy web connection, simply earlier than he heads into the Amazon. It’s someplace he received’t be capable of make music, nonetheless a lot he needs to. And that’s precisely the purpose.
To this 28 yr outdated, born Bjarki Runar Sigurðarson, making music has been an obsession, a manner of escaping, a way of remedy ever since his teenage years. He’s adopted the identical routine, day in, time out, and it solely accelerated after 2015 when he was signed by Nina Kraviz for her Trip label. “I must cease for my well being,” he deadpans, regardless of admitting that making music can also be what retains him sane. “Being continuously within the studio is type of unhealthy. You don’t do the rest.”
It was on New Year’s Day that he realised. He performed a gig at De School in Amsterdam. It “went properly” and “was nice”, however he ”type of hated it”, as a result of he didn’t sleep for 24 hours both facet of the set. “I labored on music all the best way to and from the sound-check, and thought, ‘Shit, I’m getting outdated, I can’t do that any extra. It’s ache. I’m not a child’.” He talks about making music in good English, however with an American lilt, and there's an virtually palpable sense of ache in his voice when he does: it’s what he likes to do, but it surely’s additionally torturing him.
“Some individuals are simply of their heads on a regular basis, I suppose,” he says of why he feels he has to do it. Recently he says he received requested if he felt fully free in Iceland, a famously affluent, peaceable and sparsely populated nation. “And I used to be like... free? What is freedom? Am I actually free? Making music or creating, that’s after I be at liberty. If I don’t create, I am going mad. I don’t know what to do with myself.” When his thoughts wanders and goes into overdrive, nervousness kicks in. “At the tip of all of it, we’re only a bunch of atoms and molecules interacting in line with arcane mathematical guidelines. Our ideas, our thoughts, our mind is our jail.”
In order to remain out of his psychological jail, nowadays Bjarki is making an attempt to learn extra, analysis, “all types of issues in regards to the surroundings and nature’s regulation,” in addition to eat extra cucumber, drink extra water and reduce out all cheese. “I’ve by no means spoken about this earlier than, however there was some extent the place I didn’t eat in any respect. When I’m making music, I’m mainly all the time hungry. As quickly as you eat, your vitality adjustments, your focus is misplaced, and the second is gone.”